Often we think that the moment we begin our steps towards transitioning our depression goes away. How great it would be if that were true, but the reality is that it, in most ways, increases. I’m not too sure if its the addition of the hormones mixed with our emotions, but in most cases it gets pretty bad. In many cases, the extreme change in emotions that trigger a bad feeling about the way we see ourselves along with the way we can start making ourselves believe what others think about us can lead to suicide.
I, myself have many days where I feel like life is the worst thing ever. I constantly blame myself for not having true love and companionship. I tell myself that if I weren’t transgendered I’d already be married having kids and building a life thats “normal”. I know that I am not alone with these feelings. there are so many transgendered people who cry themselves to sleep at night wondering when is life going to change? when is it going to all stop and finally become what they thought it would be?
The reality is that there will always be issues in life. The fact that we are so hard on ourselves for being trans increases our depression and holds us back. Almost arresting us to depression. Although I’m fighting through depression, I want to ecourage people to be strong enough to fight this fight with me. Sure! we don’t always fit into society the way that we’d like to and dating/finding a partner isn’t always as ideal as we’d like it to be, but we can support one another by building a strong community of support that will provide strength to lift us up.